....I'd like to give you all a glimpse of my life and a small portion of my testimony. I will first begin by saying NEVER say what will happen to you or what you'd never do because you truly never know. I was 16 when we met and 17 when I moved in with him and he proposed. Not a day in my life did I think that he would ever harm me. He bought me everything that I wanted and did everything that I asked, until he realized our lives were about to take separate paths. August 2004 I was to leave for college on a volleyball scholarship, but in July 2004 he lost his job. He begged me to stay I refused, and that's when it began....
"NO MORE"
Sometimes you just have to get to the point where you say
"NO MORE!"
My heart is black, my spirit is drained
It's been three years now and it's still the same
The threats get even more real, my bruises have no time to
heal
More of them seem to come, Lord what's going to happen to
me? What have I done?
I'm tired of hiding behind this fake smile,
My friends see right through me, but don't let it show is
my style.
School, home, school, home is all that I do...
School is my refuge, It's where I feel free
But I think even here he can still harm me.
I'm tired you see, I've lost the fight,
I'd go to bed at night praying "Lord please take my life"
But He didn't...
My friends are all tired, They seem not to understand
Why I let myself suffer at the hands of this man...But do
they know I'm afraid??
Afraid of losing my comfort and my security,
Afraid of doing things on my own, I need him here with
me..
Or so I thought....
It wasn't so bad at first, At first I'd only get slapped
But then it progressed to him choking me, to the point once
I almost passed out
Even when I was pregnant, I didn't get a break, He'd still
curse me out, and his favorite was to spit in my face.
You sit there astonished and even outraged, but this was my
life, you don't have to live this way..
But neither did I...
It got to the point the pain I could no longer hide
My crying on the inside began to pour outside.
No more could I live in fear of losing my life,
No more would I allow him to not treat me right.
It took some years, okay try four
Before I realized I didn't want to live this way anymore
No more of the cursing, the kicking, the spitting in my
face,
No more late night rides down 290, down roads that seemed
out of place.
No more forgetting who I was in Christ
No more trying or wanting to take my own life.
I thank God for the friends that saw me through.
I still hurt for the pain and anguish I put them through,
But they look at me now, they see me so much stronger than
before
Please do me a favor if it is you, be strong take NO
MORE!!
Many times I probably should have and could have died,
But by God's grace and mercy I'm still alive.
He put a new song in my mouth, A new praise on my lips...
It's still hard to do, but with God I can do this...
I can stand in front of you and tell you my story,
So you can help yourself or a loved one who may seem to
worry.
Worrying that they can never make it out..
It' not an overnight process, but it can be done without a
doubt.
If this person is not you, but is your friend, keep
encouraging them until they reach the end.
Believe in your heart that they want out,
Wait until they feel it deep in their core
because one day they too will stand and say NO MORE..
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