My Life is My Testimony
Let me take a minute to break it down chop it up and spin it
see u think u know my life, but stop lookin around for the truth and ask the one livin it... so many people are scared to take control and let their minds unfold /wont allow people see their testimonies which they keep buried within their souls...but I'm not gonna hold my tongue/ let me shoot my gun because its not just my business/ get this ima let u in it cause if I don't I'm not handling the kingdom business...you look at me u see glam, glitz, bling, a happy family, but let me let u in on what you didn't see...let me take u back to a time/ press rewind on my life that has been playin for sometime...you see it didn't start out this way I had some struggles and pain that brought me to this day...let's see where do we start? With my parents that let me down or with the guys that broke my heart?? Let's start from the beginning/ find u a chair to sit in cause this right here is real....Ima start with the parents who didn't know themselves and didn't care for us/Us meaning my sister and me...drugs and alcohol seemed to always infiltrate our lives taking away the ones closest to us...my grandmother tried but after she died everything seemed to fall apart. My cousins they did their best to push us through the test but God hadn't even gotten started yet...moving on through life trying not to give in to the strife/ I succeed, fly high, but still struggle to get by. High school-Worked a full time job to pay my way through volleyball camp not seeing the problem that I had on my left...To the left to the left that's what I should have said to the first guy to break my heart...funny thing is that he did more than that..he took my courage, my will to live, my happiness, but yet and still I allowed him. I didn't trust God to bring me out but today I can look back and shout...bruises in places only I could see, bite marks, mental abuse, tears from when he spit on me...but I didn't trust God to see me through...so many nights I cried asking Him why while my friends they stood helpless on the side..look at me.. When would enough be enough? I can only cry so many times/ I'm dying inside-but no time to cry/ time to dry my eyes because from this union a beautiful child has arrived and he needs me. He needs me to show him what my parents didn't show me/ but don't get it twisted I forgive them totally because they succeeded in making me strong no mater how wrong. The days continue on, but the once feeble me begins to become strong, yet its funny because truthfully I was strong all along just couldn't see it with the blinders I had on. As I continued to listen to God's word I decided to step out on faith and do the unthinkable..it was either that or seal my fate...once I did I found out that God didn't lie...He says that if you trust Me I will direct your paths and He did just that. He guided me from a path of unrighteousness to a life of blessedness...you see I was bruised and battered, but Not forsaken- cast down, but not destroyed, I stand here as a witness of God's faithfulness...Look at me..now do you know me? I look at my now husband whom I never would've met had I not been able to do what the song says which is "Let go and let God" God is..great God is good...I look at my left hand and there sits a beautiful ring that symbolizes that God is able..He is able to turn your messing into blessings-able to give you enough rest to pass your test/and able to give you enough faith to run your race...And before I let you go I wanna let you know that this child inside my womb is a blessing and isn't doomed..My child our child is a blessing from above/ one which I could've missed hanging on to that so called "love" Ha love that kept trying to take my life...Devil you should've killed me when you had the chance because now I'm stronger, I'm wiser and I'm doing the will of God like I've never done it before..sharing my story, moving forward, taking back all that has been taken away...Look at me what do you see?-Cause u see my life yall-it's my testimony
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